January 30th

As expected, A has gone public this weekend with the news of her pregnancy, and we've been visiting, or ringing, friends and relatives to tell them the news. A initially asked me to be the one who announces it, because she was getting a little emotional when she brought it up, but now she's managing to do so without tearing up. Also, a number of people claim they'd suspected A might be pregnant - either they'd previously seen something in her face (that alleged 'glow' of a pregnant woman) or believed her recent weight gain had indicated she might be 'with child'.

In fact, A started putting on weight after our return from overseas at the end of July last year. She told me recently that it was largely the result of feeling depressed becuse she hadn't conceived yet, and her extra pounds became especially noticeable in November and December - much earlier than could be accounted for by her need to 'eat for two'.

In fact, A has always struggled with her weight, has attempted numerous diets, has bought a number of 'fat fighting' products she saw advertised on TV or the internet, and now feels her metabolism is 'fucked' because of all these different attempts to slim down. I think she's probably a little relieved that pregnancy gives her a legitimate reason to now look overweight (though finding suitable clothes is becoming problem). But after giving birth I think she'd like to try getting her weight under control again - and to be honest, at the risk of sounding shallow or insensitive, I kind of hope she does too.